Enough Meat Pies

January 21st, 2009 by Celeste

Enough Meat Pies

Visiting Australia. My host family has a special deal with the bakery. Every week they pick up the extras from the last couple of days. Lovely fresh artisan bread that didn’t sell, rolls, danishes, and the classic Australian meat pie.

All those are weaknesses of mine, though I rarely eat them at home. So of course, here I’ve fulfilled my fantasy. Heck, why pass up a danish if you… Continue reading


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Cleaning out the closet

December 4th, 2008 by Celeste

Not sure why it’s so hard to write these days. Too much is happening, on too many levels. Changes in my personal life, my professional life, my inner life.

I came home from the weekend and started cleaning out the closets. Well, I actually only have one, so it’s cleaning out the closet. I carry three big boxes to the Goodwill. One a box of assorted goofy lingerie that I used… Continue reading


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Breaking open

October 16th, 2008 by Celeste

Peaches in the summer,
Apples in the fall,
If I can’t have you all the time
Then I’ll have none at all.

Gillian Welch, folk singer. Though the song is probably older – soldier’s joy (which was morphine, in the civil war)

I notice that I have just finished the last of the fresh peaches I bought when crossing the mountains a couple of weeks ago. The trees continue to turn.

Yesterday, on my way through… Continue reading


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The Power of Celibacy

June 29th, 2008 by Celeste

It’s a big difference – celibacy and not gettin’ any.

Last week I left you hanging on a lonesome note. A few days later, I got myself over to a colleagues studio for my turn on the massage table. We sat and talked a bit, just to catch up on what I was feeling. Oh, I remember now, what it feels like to have loving acceptance, witnessing, caring – that’s just… Continue reading


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Hunting for human touch

June 3rd, 2008 by Celeste

I tell a woman today that I’m an intimacy coach. She’s a retired speech pathologist, worked in public schools for many years. She asks about my work and I say a little about touch, that I teach people how to touch each other with more awareness and skill, how to make their love lives safer and juicier.

Wow – wish you were around when I was younger! – you’d be… Continue reading


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Desert Rain

May 28th, 2008 by Celeste

I’m in country-music country this week, and here is one of the verses – he’s talking about his woman, and her changes of mood –

Just like springtime in Alberta
Sunny days, endless skies of blue
Then without a warning
A winter storm comes ragin’ through

That’s me today. The storm has come rolling through and I am in tears all day.

Will someone please remind me why this work is important? What it has to… Continue reading


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Book store surrender

May 8th, 2008 by Celeste

I stopped by a book store yesterday, and wandered perilously close to the sex section. It was huge – huge! Actually it probably wasn’t all that big, compared to say, the computer section. Heck, it might not even have been as big as the gardening section, but I don’t know, because that’s as far as I got. I mean, how can you walk right by the sex section?

Maybe it was… Continue reading


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Round and full

April 22nd, 2008 by Celeste

Today, his hands on my breasts and his cock between them, I remembered how, as a girl of 10, flat as an ironing board, I had yearned for breasts. Nice round ones, though I would have been happy for any, really. I imagined them, pretended them. Once, on the way to the pool, shirt and shorts over swimsuit, I secretly rolled the top of my suit down so that it… Continue reading


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Transience

April 6th, 2008 by Celeste

The nights are the hardest. Sounds like a country western song.

Watching the sun set in a fabulous sky is my luxury – 5th floor condo facing west over city, water and mountains. A very mundane view of the city, but the sky is the star of this show.

Tonight I think of all the people for whom this sunset will be the last. Someday, some sunset will be my last. Makes… Continue reading


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Sunday morning miracles

March 1st, 2008 by Celeste

Something is happening to my heart.Today, visiting my father’s church, I noticed that I actually wanted to be there with him. I noticed that instead of the old people (and his church is 95% old people) being, well – let’s see. It’s not that they have ever felt a bother, or not worth my attention, or even boring. It’s just that the only reason I would ever go, do ever… Continue reading


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